Kaity

I remember just feeling numb like in disbelief that it was happening, I’m sure I have blocks of parts of that experience. I felt subhuman there.

At some point after returning home I just shut down, stopped communicating with anyone, and layed in bed for months.

It’s not just a hospital too by the way. It was a murder short of feeling like I was in the asylum from outlast. Wailing, fighting, screaming and all other sorts of antisocial behavior, with the staff barely in control. At the least that was how it felt and being committed to that place beyond just preventing my possible suicide in the short term became a lasting traumatic experience.

Her*

I wish I had your self control, cravings ruin me. But I am trying to be better lol.

you must be one of them tankies /s

I just started using it today after seeing a comment on it, it may have been yours and it seems fantastic, I took a look at their demo searches and it reminded me of old google while still keeping elements from new google I find useful, and being able to disable or disable any feature I want is amazing.

I haven’t dug in too deep on making my own lenses yet, since they had some very sensible defaults (I mean seriously they have a default lemmy/fediverse lens) but that feature seems incredibly cool and useful if I want to set up something to easily search a variety of niche, focused websites on a subject I want to search on a regular basis.

I was worried about it not featuring conversions/math stuff but prepared to use WolframAlpha for that, but it included them, the only thing is oddly after providing the answer to my test math query of 88+17 it showed search results from the quran and the bible lol. But I suppose that was just a minor oddity.

Currently playing fallout New Vegas modded on Linux! Of course if you already did it, remodding and transferring the saves would be frustrating, but it is actually pretty simple once you learn how to use Steam Tinker Launch.

This comment is like being mad there are gay people hitting on you at a gay bar.

I looked it up to read it, harrowing but I don’t think he is dead. He posted a few years ago saying that the account is too much to log in on, from all the messages and I get that. I once made some posts/comments about being suicidal that got nowhere near the attention he got and I was getting DMs about it for years. I can’t imagine the stress of logging in to that account with how many mentions, DMs and comments it must receive, about a really really shitty time in your life.

Even when you are paying for accuracy… I went to a home once for someone who paid for the builders to get everything perfect; the walls were crooked and warped like every wall I’ve ever seen.

Came here to say something but everyone already said it.

You do in fact exist in the world, you aren’t a bystander, you can actually do things like turning the manhole cover.

I’m sure it would be pretty simple to put a simple code in the pixels of the image, could probably be done with offset of alpha channel or whatever, using relative offsets or something like that. I might be dumb but fingerprinting the actual image should be relatively quick forward and an algorithm could be used to detect it, of course it would potentially be damaged by bad encoding or image manipulation that changes the entire image. but most people are just going to be copy and pasting and any sort of error correction and duplication of the code would preserve most of the fingerprint.

I’m a dumb though and I’m sure there is someone smarter than me who actually does this sort of thing who will read this and either get angry at the audacity or laugh at the incompetence.

Personally if I’m talking to anything that has any degree of intelligence or sentience I use kind language. Not only does every living thing deserve it, but it also is just nice for me in the moment too. It’s like a feedback loop of kindness, what goes around comes around, and I like feeling like a good person and seeing the reactions to that kindness.

Besides, my personal belief is everything has value and consciousness and we are all a part of the same consciousness, so in a way I also see it as being nice to myself in the end.

Simultaneously the worst and funniest feeling, is searching for a solution and most of the responses/results are to go search for it. If your answer is that searching for an answer is an easy and quick solution, you contribute to disproving yourself.

Oh absolutely, and making something creative takes days, weeks, months.

Drama, complaining, conspiracy theorizing, and hate-videos take a few minutes to make more than the video itself lasts.

A lot of shitty things are done under the guise of, “It makes me feel uncomfortable”

Trans people especially, anything to do with them really, Oh I make you uncomfortable, guess we will just magically stop existing.

And for the uncomfortable people out there, most times the “stop existing” thing, comes in the form of unaliving because we aren’t cis like everyone else… that’s kinda the whole thing

our glorious pig’s glorious lipstick of the highest caliber*

Oh I forgot I was @Kyatto here >.>

That was silly of me, Thanks Zink <3

kyattophilic?

Well not only do you deserve to exist, but I am glad you exist.

thank you ^-

Of course, I do enjoy the fantasy, especially on the precipice of an election that decides my right of existence.

The walls were to keep us in, not the other way around, after all.